Thankfulness, Gratitude and NOT Being a Control Freak

For those of you who truly think that you can plan out your life, and make things go according to plan, I'm just going to tell you that you're nuts. Not necessarily a bad thing, because you're definitely not alone. I've had a moment or two or thousands of times, when I've stomped my feet and pouted because things didn't go the way I wanted them to. We all have our moments when we revert back to being 5 years old, slamming doors and hiding away from the world because we lost that control. Been there, done that. And I even find myself doing that still as a young adult, and I'm sure that many, MANY more moments like those I will repeat. I'm learning to give up that control and go with the flow. But to be honest, as much as I lose control in life and have to learn to deal with it's spontaneity, I'm grateful for it.

This morning when I woke up, next to the father of my future child, the man I am going to marry, I felt so at ease and content. Even though he was still asleep, just him being there, always being there like he is, just makes things so much easier. He doesn't realize that he has this huge effect on my life. He is the most unselfish person I know. He can always, ALWAYS make me laugh. And I love that he gets excited over little things. I'm sure there are times when he is annoyed with me, but he never shows it. We both have stresses, but we work together through them, rather than take them out on each other. I'm not trying to say our relationship is perfect or that we never ever have any issues, but he is my best friend. And I'm so glad that he feels the same for me. Both of us have grown immensely since becoming a huge part in each other's lives, but I honestly feel like it is for the best. We've grown and improved ourselves. He is so driven to be the provider and make a better lifestyle for us and baby, and I am striving to make our house a home and make our little family unit a strong one. Lucky for me, each of us preparing and trying to make these aspirations come true, has brought us closer. We are each other's biggest supporters, and we know that as long as we have each other's backs, nothing can stop us.

I'm thankful that things don't go according to plan. It makes those sweet moments sweeter, the funny moments funnier, and all those moments all the more real.


Happy Sunday!
xo