I know just about every single one of my posts have recently begin with an apology of not keeping up with the blog. It's so hard to really do anything these days. Working 40 hours a week, being a mom, planning a wedding and managing to squeeze some sleep in there somewhere is NO easy task. So this may be pretty lengthy, but it's worth it.
CAIGE: Oh this adorable spitting-image of Jake has me wrapped around his itty bitty finger. It's so true what they say: Your really don't know true love until you have a child. Being a mom is the absolute best feeling in the WHOLE world! I honestly cannot remember what life was like before him. He's growing like a weed. I swear he grows an inch almost everyday. He is comfortably wearing size 9 month clothes already! And he's barely four months old! And to top it off, he rolled over for the first time last weekend and he is already starting to push himself up on his knees. I give it a month before he attempts crawling.
JAKE: He has been doing great! Busy with the band lately. They're getting ready for a short tour (which I think has been narrowed down to 5 days now). It started off being 10, but things just kept falling through. This is a little bittersweet for me. I know it's going to be a blast for them, and it's going to get their name out there, which they need. But I'm also a little bummed they'll be gone. No one likes spending time away from their significant other, but sometimes a little time apart is good for each other. I know how dependent I can be at times, but sometimes I need to be a little more independent. No one likes being alone, but I support him in all his endeavours and adventures, whatever they may be.
And as for me...I think I'm doing about as well as I can. I severely underestimated how hard it is working full time and being a mom. I applaud you moms with your careers and managing to keep your chaos to a dull roar, but I'm managing. It is hard being away from Caige and Jake. With Jake's work schedule, we maybe get to spend two waking hours a day with each other. I come home from work about 6:00 and then around 8:00 we're usually heading to bed. That is why I savour our weekends. Lately we haven't been doing anything except staying at home. I love it, because then I can be selfish and I don't have to share either of my boys.
We're currently planning the wedding, which is only a month away! I do apologize if you weren't invited, we're honestly trying to keep it as small as possible. Mostly family and a few friends. Don't think we aren't considering you a friend, just times are tough, and weddings aren't cheap. And neither is being a parent, so bear with us.
I will admit, I'm not one to get stressed easily, but I've been stressing major these past few weeks, and I'm sure it's only going to get worse until the wedding day. I don't know why I'm so frantic and stressed (I'm sure I don't show it, but I sure do feel it!), but I guess it's just the control freak inside of me. I know things are going to be perfect, and I don't want them to be, I guess it's just a combination of anxiety and excitement. Honestly, I just want the next month to fast forward to that day, and then let that day go in slow motion.
I'll quit my whining/daydreaming now and let you get on with your day. I'll post some updated pictures later :)
